Changes…..

Well, it has been a while since I posted so here’s what’s new.
1. We found out we are having a boy.
2. We have decided on a name: Luke Riley. (Yes, I can hear you snickering) 
3. We are a family of 6 relying on a single 5 passenger vehicle. Our other vehicle threw a rod.
4. My Parents moved to West Virginia so my Dad could be closer to his family.

I just want to take a few minutes to touch on a previous post about the “New Kid”. Most of my misgiving about the baby went away with finding out he is a boy. I am now getting more and more excited as we move closer to the due date. (December 25th but we have a C-section scheduled for Dec. 17th.)
I have noticed that this is a different feeling than my first biological child, Emily. I wonder if I should feel different. I find myself grinning at the thought, and at the name choice. I know… I know… Luke? Really? Yes, really. Can’t wait. (Mostly) What fun I am going to have. I have been thinking a lot about different things we will do. The different experiences we will share. I find myself hoping he will turn out like me in a lot of ways, just not all of them. 
But then I think… How will this impact Emily? While I have tried to spread myself around as much as possible with all the girls, Emily has gotten a good bit of attention from me. We both seem to crave the closeness. She is great, and I love her so much. I don’t really have the words to describe the connection we share. And I wonder, how is our relationship going to be affected? Is she going to feel jealous? Is she going to feel replaced or rejected? Am I worrying over nothing? I just don’t want our relationship to change. This has been weighing pretty heavily on my mind.
I guess I am just looking for insight and advice at this point. My wife tells me I worry too much. Maybe I do. Perhaps I am too comfortable with status quo. Change is hard…..

Advertisement